With apologies to Hello Kitty...
This morning, I did my first application of Efudex. Only 29 days to go!
I was awake at 4:30 am. No, I didn't do it then. Like anyone wanting to avoid the inevitable, I waited until the last minute. But I did find time to go over the literature again. Hey, I couldn't sleep anyway!
- treated area may become unsightly during treatment and in some cases for several weeks after treatment
(Yes, any of us that have seen the photos of others online can see this)
- skin irritation, burning, redness, dryness, pain, swelling, tenderness, or changes in skin color,
- eye irritation, trouble sleeping (as if hearing you have any kind of cancer is ever a
- irritability (from the lack of sleep no doubt),
- temporary hair loss (meh... it could be permanent for all I care),
- abnormal taste in the mouth
For those out there that have to go through this, I know you're scared. Heck I'M SCARED. However, doing something about it is better than not doing anything and things getting worse.
I would have killed to be able to put a moisturizer on today (dry indoor air) but thats a no-no.
So I put on my gloves and spread the Efudex on. Its consistency is a little odd and its hard to get it to spread evenly. Practice will make perfect I guess. The good thing is that it doesn't appear to be greasy and doesn't appear to have any scent, pleasant or otherwise.
I think it's important to realize that everyone is different and will get a different reaction based on how much cancer/pre-cancer/AK you have on your skin.
This is part of the reason I'll be posting photos. Perhaps not everyday though. No touchups. No Photoshop blur tool, no vaseline on the lens.
The other reason is that if it can motivate anyone into wearing sunscreen to avoid having to go through this, then maybe all the angst and, according to the warnings on the label... pain, will have been worth it.
I suspect that the top of my head is going to be the worst, but I already know that it is the part that needs treatment the most.
Friends have said they don't see anything. I do. I can feel it. It feels kind of scaly...like dry skin, which is what I thought it was. This is what makes skin cancer so insidious. You either can't see it, or think its something else.